❤ [F]ishy_瑜 ❤

14022011.

2012-02-14T23:56:00.000+08:00

Valentine's day.
so basically today is only meaning full for those who have valentine.
& me, i would like to say, Happy Tuesday. :)

08022012.

2012-02-08T03:12:00.000+08:00

我不喜欢这样的夜晚
这会让我默默的想起你

我以为这种噩梦
不会再缠着我
谁知道它就这样的围绕着我

一句解释都没有
这还是我最在意的
我不甘心
可是我也不想再去忧心
你也已经表现的非常明白

我知道
我需要的只是时间
时间久了
什么都会过去的

29012012.

2012-01-29T03:01:00.001+08:00

When everything come to the end,

& i finally realise how fragile it is.

Emo freak. Hello.

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18012011.

2012-01-18T04:42:00.000+08:00

its like i already get use to the way we communicate.
people feel weird,
and yes i do too.

i cant do anything,
but i still,
need to have a little bit of confidence for what i have choose.

have a little faith,
i hope i could.

13012012.

2012-01-13T16:56:00.004+08:00

kind of feeling,
which i seriously don't know how to express.

going back to my homesweethome tomorrow,
and fuck yea, emotional attack me at this moment,
without any reason, i just don't want to talk.

如果你选择在我的生命缺席
我也不会强求

i, me, my. hello 2012.

2012-01-01T17:27:00.000+08:00

hello 2012.
a brand new year.
times flies, life still go on.
nothing different.
2012, so what?

Having a little celebration with my beloved kampar gang.
we went TheVoice, Kampar.
shout out all our stress and enjoy th night.

think about pass year.
i consider amazing for me i guess?

i get to know some new friendsss,
and very soon, they become my honey babess.
we eat and play and joke together.
its amazing, when your life have gang of friend is always there for you.

and i,
had officially change my relationship status,
and im officially 21th.
have to be more responsible to myself,
no more daddy girl.
gonna settle every single problem myself.

yet,
im still that emotional girl,
im still cry for little things,
im still that stubborn,
im still that not confidence.

that's no such things call NewYear, NewMe.
so how do you wanna change yourself to a brand new you?
by changing your name? your gander? your race or your personality?
im still being th same me,
loving everyone who love me back,
doing the same mistake over and over again,
still thinking for some miracle or fairy tale to happen,
and still, hoping for a good year.

Happy New Year.

29122011.

2011-12-29T03:48:00.001+08:00

我不喜欢你就这样占据我所有思绪

世界就是那么的讽刺
我们常常和陌生人微笑
却和最熟悉的人争吵
生活不可能像想象得那么好
但应该也不会像想象得那么糟
有时
我脆弱得一句话就泪流满面
有时
却发现自己咬着牙走了很长的路

所谓的和睦相处
只是习惯了他的坏习惯

你随便的一说
我却认真的难过
一辈子有多少真心话

是以玩笑的方式说了出去

这一晚
我学会不在意
毕竟有些事不是我不在意

而是我在意了又能怎样

你的冷淡
让我想起了从前
我怕了
我退后了
对不起

果然

沟通还是最大的问题

27122011.

2011-12-27T03:46:00.001+08:00

Merry belated christmas. :)

Never went for any celebration this year since final is around th corner.

A simply greeting from friend is more than enough. :)

12am, merry christmas.

And i spend my whole night at mcD and fight with Business and Cyber Law

Aaaaa, killer subject.

Thank you boy for giving me such a suprise. :)

You are so considerate.

Thank you. :)

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16122011.

2011-12-16T02:17:00.000+08:00

蝎子不喜欢生气，因为会伤感情，

但是要知道蝎子生气时是最可怕的，放的狠话也是最狠的，

蝎子生气就象暴风雨的前夕，没有任何现象，只会沉默，

要是再刺激天蝎，天蝎就不会再忍了，

不要越过天蝎的底线，后果很严重！

没有想要对号入座的意思

只是觉得说的很对

不止天蝎

每个人都有自己的底线

不要特地去挑战别人的底线

到最后你只会被别人说你犯贱

就算是多亲密的人

忍耐还是有个限度

你说我不了解

你何尝不是

NowPlaying

天使嫉妒的生活

09122011.

2011-12-09T02:57:00.001+08:00

had just finish BBQ with gang of friends,
th moment with friends can seriously forget all th sadness behind.

im not a sweet girl,
im weird, im lame, i run into things, i scream about random & stupid stuff.
i overreact, i underestimate, i over thinking everything and sometimes i dream big.
but, i like it that way, i am who i am.

sometimes i wondering why should i change because of some random people i my life.
i thought i should be myself?

"It's amazing how one person can change your whole life."
she told me this,
but yet,
he/she can change your life, and can ruin your life at the same time.

people always judge others by their action, so am i.
since in the end, it was actions that defined everyone.

am always hurting people i know,
but, that's the way i protect myself,
perhaps, i used wrong way.

in th past, i only wanted people to see the best of me,
now, i do not mind you seeing my faults,
i just want you to accept th real me.

No matter how long the rain lasts,

there will be a rainbow in the end.

pass 27112011.

2011-11-28T03:08:00.001+08:00

love is about finding someone whose weirdness is compatible with your own weirdness

and so thanks for being there for me. :)

25112011.

2011-11-25T16:03:00.001+08:00

说真的
有时候真的不了解自己要些什么

有时候会在想
这一秒
我好想定下来
找到一个爱我的我爱的在一起平平淡淡就好了
下一秒
我却想自己一个人享受自己的生活
就这样什么都一个人就好了
反正我有朋友可以陪我疯陪我笑
这样就够了

人是犯贱的？
当你有个伴被绑手绑脚的时候
就会羡慕那些单身的
觉得他们那么自在多好
当你真的单身
却在羡慕那些情侣
看着他们那么甜蜜
就在埋怨自己怎么没人陪

人类啊
就不能单纯一点么?

算了
我这种不受控制的疯子
还是保持单身比较好

20112011.

2011-11-20T16:48:00.001+08:00

th only things i can say is only sorry.
i don't know you were so serious.

'i still care'
that's th problem.

she told me,
sometime you just need distance yourself from people,
if they care, they'll notice.
if they don't, than you know where you stand.
and th sad case is, i realize you din't even notice about me neither i'm staying or leaving.

sometimes someone comes into your life and changes everything.

they raises your standards,

makes you laugh,

makes you feel like you,

and hurt you like nobody care.

i miss you,

maybe i shouldn't, but i do.

16112011.

2011-11-16T00:20:00.001+08:00

sometimes feeling is beyond th words.
one emotional can express thousand words.
but sometimes, thousand words are unable to express even one emotional.

you told me you could feel me when look into my eyes.
sometimes i doubt.

this time you are a little far away from me.
use your heart to feel.
and you will feel something special, something different.

i knew its wasn't fair,
i knew its was wrong,
but i couldn't help it this time.

Pass. 10112011.

2011-11-14T06:35:00.000+08:00

i know i always blessed when all of you around me.
i'm glad and appreciate to have you guys in my life.

th card, th gift and th cake.
thank you for all th effort.
you guys are awesome.
i love you more than what i can say.
that's the fantastic celebration ever! :)

the best things in my life,
i have all of you and makes every of my day become special.

10112011 @ Fishy Tank

10112011 @ Sakai

11112011 @ TGI Friday

12012011 @ View Roof top bar, G tower

all i can see is only LOVE from you guys. :')

02112011

2011-11-02T01:23:00.000+08:00

强求的
我不要
我也不希罕

有时候
上天没有给你想要的
不是因为你不配
而是你值得更好的

就算受尽委屈
我是否还要努力微笑
努力保持风度?

就算我抱着无比的決心
对某些事不一定有帮助

就算我乐观的对待
对某些事情不一定管用

就算我做了完全的准备
但计划永远赶不上变化

就算我掉下了伤心的眼淚
但有些事情发生了

回忆就会一直存在

回头看看当时的自己

真的觉得很可笑

31102011.

2011-10-31T01:44:00.001+08:00

emotional easy come, hard to go.

without any reason.

yet,

a simple words from the right person,

could easily cheer you up.

and you,

speak up now,

or not please forever gold up your mouth.

我不怨谁, 这是我自己的选择. #犀利人妻

24102011.

2011-10-24T16:02:00.001+08:00

我说
我要成为一朵玫瑰

他说
玫瑰不好
因为玫瑰带刺
会伤人

我说
那不是伤人的刺
是保护自己的刺
如果你不来剥夺我的一切
我也没有伤你的理由

他说
你让人又爱又恨

我说
那只是我的保护罩

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13102011.

2011-10-13T00:16:00.000+08:00

就这样一年了
默默地你离开了一年
基本上这一年没什么太大的变化
只是家族聚会变少了
关系变得没那么密切

今年中秋
家里还是依照往年一样买了你最爱的潮州月饼
只是, 今年每人陪我一起吃
中秋聚会
还是依照惯例的进行
只是今年少了一个亲爱的坐在客厅陪我们大笑

你的离开
就想把我心里挖空一块
那种空洞, 是无论我做什么都填补不了的

有时候想念你的时候
只能自己闭上眼睛
不断的寻找以前的回忆
默默地想念
静静的思念

你应该也跟阿公碰面了吧
你们两个应该也跟以前一样那么恩爱吧

婆, 这一年来你还好么?

26092011.

2011-09-26T03:42:00.001+08:00

夜深人静
怎么总是那么多愁善感?
这就是所谓的自做自受吧?

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26082011.

2011-08-26T16:34:00.000+08:00

friend leave one by one.
and i cannot stand my tears anymore.

i don't know how i survive without them when i new sem start. =(

时光, 可以倒流吗?

22082011.

2011-08-22T01:00:00.002+08:00

stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo?
stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo?
stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo?
stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo?
stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo?
stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo?
stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo? stress? emo?

kay.
stress win.

05082011.

2011-08-05T20:47:00.000+08:00

i don't know how far i can go anymore.

i feel hard to breathe in this situation.

or i'm too sucks since i can't handle this anymore?

i seriously being too emotional for this fewdays.

god bless.

*finger cross*

21072011.

2011-07-21T12:02:00.000+08:00

she's right, shouldn't give any excuse for him, or myself.

worthless.

care more hurt more. i know.

10072011.

2011-07-10T22:37:00.000+08:00

till th time you call me,

i only realize how sucks m i.

i'm fail.

2011-07-06T05:18:00.001+08:00

i'm fail.
i unable to control my feeling.

i'm fail.
i have no rights to judge the situation.

i'm fail.
i can't stop th tears when its start to rolling down.

i'm fail.
i stuck in th middle and i don't know where i should go.

i'm fail.
fail for everything in my life.

01072011

2011-07-01T06:37:00.001+08:00

Its 0630am.
I fail to fall a sleep.

Is just too busy for this two weeks,
Till i feel hard to breathe.

I need more time to rest,
For mentally and physically.

Too emo this few days,
I'm a jerk that feel insecure.

I need more time,
24hours per day,
Its just too less for me,
I need more, please.
Or,
I need more confidence, perhaps.

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25062011.

2011-06-25T17:06:00.000+08:00

Remember when I cried to you a thousand times
I told you everything
You know my feelings
It never crossed my mind
That there would be a time
For us to say goodbye
What a big surprise

But I'm not lost
I'm not gone
I haven't forgot

These feelings I can't shake no more
These feelings are running out the door
I can feel it falling down
And I'm not coming back around
These feelings I can't take no more
This emptiness in the bottom drawer
It's getting harder to pretend
And I'm not coming back around again
Remember when...

I remember when it was together till the end
Now I'm alone again
Where do I begin?
I cried a little bit
You died a little bit
Please say there's no regrets
And say you won't forget
But I'm not lost
I'm not gone
I haven't forgot

These feelings I can't shake no more
These feelings are running out the door
I can feel it falling down
And I'm not coming back around
These feelings I can't take no more
This emptiness in the bottom drawer
It's getting harder to pretend
And I'm not coming back around again..

13062011.

2011-06-13T04:56:00.000+08:00

在我心里有一道墙
没有钥匙, 没有门
上面长满了刺
所以容易被遗忘
以免去触碰

但是它有一个开关
只要你出现
那道墙立即变得脆弱
而且倒塌

你无预警的出现在我面前
可是就这样看了一眼
然后离开
说真的
我宁愿你从来没出现过

崩溃了

哭了

痛了

放弃了

离开了

时间不留人
所以我也不需要做无谓的等待

推开了你的手
不再让你捧在手心

我为自己感到骄傲
至少这次我能那么的为自己着想
就这样让你与我无关
就这样放下一切不再回想

答案其实很明显
只是太过于复杂的情绪扰乱了一切
或许大哭一场把一切释放
这样真的会比较好

换一个方式对待这种关系
总比把自己弄得遍体鳞伤来的好

~~那一晚, 其实我在等待.~~

11062011

2011-06-11T18:33:00.000+08:00

don't ask me to wait,
don't ask me to stay.
worth or worthless,
i don't know.

its not a good timing,
i know.

~~emo, please go away from me.~~

08062011.

2011-06-08T03:56:00.000+08:00

thanks god.
i just feel so free after i telling out everything in my mind.
its a kind of release.

thank you for you know who i mean. :)
soul sister, good term ever.

07062011.

2011-06-07T05:32:00.001+08:00

God damn.
My life is just full of drama.
I can't imagine why will this happen to me.

Don't judge a book from its cover, the only things i can say.

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06062011.

2011-06-06T03:09:00.000+08:00

i smile doesn't means i don't care.

sorry for being too serious shits,
but i think its my responsible to tell you what's in my mind.

thank you for make my day go bad.
i don't hate you,
i hate my bad temper.

12052011.

2011-05-12T02:16:00.000+08:00

when karma hit you,

i'll stand a side and clap my hand,

because you deserve it.

我不允许我再爱上你.

2011-04-26T05:10:00.002+08:00

day by day,
i don't know how long i did cry for th same reason.
i don't know what's in my mind.
i lost, yes i lost. and i lose.

till today,
i decided to walk alone, to be independent.
its an adventure for me for find back myself.
i should face th truth, even-tho truth is always hurts.
i need to face myself, my heart, to figure out what's in my mind.

nobody can help me, i gonna face it alone.

我不允許我再愛上你

你要我再給你機會原諒不負責任的後悔關於傷害輕描淡寫

你說你要用行動證明會體貼算了吧你不會

我住的城市剛剛下了一場雪讓我冷靜的回應電話那頭的虛偽

過去太容易妥協相信你的辯解這一次信任已經終結

我不允許我再脆弱愛上你不允許你打擾我的堅定

好不容易的平靜那是我吞過熱淚的努力我多委屈我多痛心你知道嗎

請秋天颳的風放過落葉請你把苦苦糾纏都收回怨恨你我不會

我希望溫柔一點記憶會多一些美一些

- 李千娜-

Miss, 是想念, 也是错过.

在我最想念你的时候, 我才发现我错过了你.

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20042011.

2011-04-20T21:39:00.001+08:00

Things change when i receive th very last message from you.
Thanks god that i have see clearly.
Its too late i know, but at least i did.
Shouldn't be stubborn again.

God bless,
Am not blinded by love anymore.

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O-Hai-Yo.

2011-04-17T22:36:00.000+08:00

HOLIDAY!

finally am officially holiday now.

opps, i miss holiday so much. C=

Holiday start, Trip mood start.

genting and malacca, here i come! :)

gonna go genting at th coming weekdays i guess.

i want th theme park, i want to scream, i want to scream out all my unhappiness out. =]

Malacca trip is in planning still,

anyone volunteer to accompany me? xD

is planning to get myself a new wallet, new pair of converse and lots of things.

i guess i gonna broke after th holiday. xD

and now i gonna go shop around with my lovely bro,

he is back from singapore!

babai~ xD

10042011.

2011-04-10T07:30:00.003+08:00

its 648am.
and i still awake. =0

09042011.
hang out with the girl. :)
is just so simple, without any reason, without any mask on my face,
i can just so easily show my smile when i'm with her. =]
random people do random things, so we do, always.

DEM should be enjoying their holiday now,
and damn! i still got one resit paper to go, th Macroeconomic. =(
and i swear i gonna screw you up macro!

had plan some trip for my sem break.
i wanna play around, and i need someone accompany.
are you free baby? =D

just so in love with the Australia girl, Lenka. She is LOVE !
i love her voice, which can warm my heart everytime i hear th song.

th latest album, have a look.

Roll with the punches & You will be mine.

Watched Burlesques again.

Opps, the guy grab my attention again!

The Cam Gigandet!!

his eyes his eyes his eyes! OMG i love his eyes.

how wish my future BoyFriend will be someone look like him. <3

he look alike with David Beckham. but i still love him more.

OMG his muscle. ¯﹃¯

he even act in Twilight, and i don't even realize.

hairstyle is important. xD

a day like this end up with my lovely song.

Blinded by Love - Lenka.

pass 18032011.

2011-03-31T02:45:00.000+08:00

这种不舍

不管过了多久感觉依然存在

只不过这次换了个方式

用另一种方式纪念最深爱的你

明年见. :)

22032011.

2011-03-22T03:39:00.000+08:00

you failed.

you never know how's your word hurt me.

when heart break into pieces.

so how can i mend it?

you are so special to me.

you know?

10032011.

2011-03-10T05:59:00.003+08:00

你给我的承诺

我一个都没忘记

可是你又记得多少

实现过多少

我给你的承诺

你一次一次的要我实现

要我完成
别无理由
我只是想看到你的笑容

这次

你不累

我也倦了

心淡了

不理了

不想了

这是唯一保护自己的方法

你这样的朋友

我。这次真的不要了

Hurt.

2011-03-01T04:59:00.000+08:00

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face

You told me how proud you were, but I walked away

If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms,
I would take the pain away

Thank you for all you've done,

forgive all your mistakes

There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit

Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this, ooh

Would you tell me I was wrong? Would you help me understand?

Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself, oh

If I had just one more day

I would tell you how much that I've missed you

Since you've been away

it just feel words.

but i feel so hurt.

it make me think of my family, my grandmother.

everything have pass, and i miss them so much.

oh homesick killed.

~~fishy. dead.~~

28022011.

2011-02-28T06:18:00.001+08:00

after so long, i looked in th mirror

and i wonder who is th girl in th mirror.

red nose, swollen eyes.

eww, why is this girl so ugly?

confidence gone, inferiority stay.

i check your profile everyday, every moment when i feel to.

what i having now is just a illusion?

only gods know.

is there a sunshine behind th dark cloud?

i'm still looking for it.

people said, time could help.

but i said, memories could kill.

th warmest word that she tell me today.

" you cant leave without oxygen, but don't worry, he is not oxygen. "

♥.

2011-02-22T13:02:00.000+08:00

trust me.
love is amazing.

and now,
i hope this will be th better one. ♥

Born This Way.

2011-02-17T14:37:00.001+08:00

It doesn't matter if you love him,

Or capital H-I-M

Just put your paws up

Cause you were born this way, baby

My mama told me when I was young

We are born superstars

She rolled my hair and put my lipstick on

In th glass of her boudoir

"there's nothing wrong with loving who you are"

She said, "cause he made you prefect, babe"

So hold your head up girl and you'll go far

Listen to me when I say

*I'm beautiful in my way

Cause god makes no mistakes

I'm on th right track baby

I was born this way

*Don't hide yourself in regret

Just love yourself and you're set

I'm on th right track baby

I was born this way

*Ooo there ain't no other way

Baby I was born this way

Ooo there ain't no other way

Baby I was born this way

I'm on th right track baby

I was born this way

Don't be a DRAG - just be a queen

Don't be a drag - just be a queen

Don't be a drag - just be a queen

Don't be!

Give yourself prudence

And love your friends

Subway kid, rejoice your truth

In th religion of the insecure

I must be myself, respect my youth

A different love is not a sin

Believe capital H-I-M (hey hey hey)

I love my life I love this record and

Mi amore vole fe yah (love need faith)

Don't be a drag, just be a queen

Whether you're broke or evergreen

You're black, white, beige, chola descent

You're Lebanese, you're orient

Whether life's disabilities

Left you outcast, bullied, or teased

Rejoice and love yourself today

Cause baby you were born this way

No matter gay, straight, or bi,

Lesbian, transgendered life

I'm on th right track baby

I was born to SURVIVE

No matter black, white or beige

Chola or orient made

I'm on the right track baby

I was born to be BRAVE. !

Lady Gaga. :)

oh hi Kampar.

2011-02-15T19:14:00.000+08:00

am just reach Kampar.
and so my awesome holiday had end.

i want home i don't want kampar.
i want mama. T-T

i watched lotsss of movie during sem break.
its almost 10++.
OMG, crazy me, crazy gang. ♥

we went here and there.

we laugh this and that.
we snap him and her.

YauYau birthday. :)

Tian Hou Gong. :)

oh my beloved cousin.

th dearest JiMui.

Lomo. Th best.

I Love You All.!

thank you for everything.

23012011.

2011-01-23T01:20:00.000+08:00

finally.
i had finish all 6 papers.
and my semester break is officially start.

homesick is always suffer.
and now, I'M HOME. :)

semester break is only start for 6 days.
and i already watch 234567890 moviessss. xD
i gonna be movie marathon soon~ >)

good news for me,
one utama's popular have 90% discount and i have bring lotssss of books back.
i think my semester break is not boring anymore. >)

i gonna get myself lotsssss of necklacesssss and braceletsssss during this sem break.
i'm so falling in love for them.
OMG!

F Block, here i come~ >)

ngor ngm you.

2011-01-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

点解?

我不要

我不要这样

: (

12012011.

2011-01-12T18:58:00.000+08:00

its take lots of courage to talk, like that.

it's hard, but i must.

should move on, shouldn't look back.

my fault, i know.

i'm sorry.

take care.

110111.

2011-01-11T09:05:00.002+08:00

i doubt myself.
am i doing th right things?
i'm sorry.
i choose to run, as far as i can.
i'm just such a coward,
that not dare to face anything, everything.
maybe they are right,
i can't handle anything well.

i wish,
i wish i could just have a moment to relax and not to worry about anything.
but now,
i can't even pretend to forgive, or either forget.
just because i'm crying, doesn't mean i'm sad.
i'm just seriously tired of pretending to be strong.
i wish,
i wish to have 2 arms and a shoulder that time : (

-我只是在用另一个方式保护我自己-

08012011.

2011-01-08T04:39:00.000+08:00

反正你也不在乎

我也没理由去在意

对吧？

04012011.

2011-01-04T08:36:00.000+08:00

家

是我唯一的寄托

看着爸爸传来的信息

眼泪不断的滑落

简单的几个字

充满了他对我的溺爱

我想他

我想妈

我想家了 :'(

Hi. 2011. ♥

2011-01-02T17:49:00.001+08:00

lets say Hi to 2011. : )

2011, a brand new year, brand new us.
will there be a chance still? =\

th party is waiting for us while new year eve.
Lavish is our first plan.
but than, erk, its f boring. =\
Lavish its a place that suitable for uncle and aunty. but not for those clubber X)
Zero, th next place of us.
thank you for those who had bring so much of fun to me.
i enjoy it, very much.
except for th part that th old bitch who scold us without any reason.
excuse me, since when i did hit you huh! = \
~~the party, its much different from what i expect.~~

some of th photo for th night : )

2010, thank you for th awesome dream, and thank you for th great time. : )

thank you for those who always available for me while i really need you.
i'm here to sorry cause my attitude and words might not be good sometime,
and sorry that i did show th emo face or ~~cry~~ face to you.
thank you for being part of my life. ♥

Party end, Study mood on.
gonna start my final at 6th Jan.
gosh, its killing me. =\
wish me luck for everything please.

~~为什么总在这样的夜晚想起你？~~

i did told myself before the party start,

no crying tonight, unless there're tears of joy.

and i did it, very well. : )

Happy New Year. ♥

29122010. ♥

2010-12-29T03:11:00.001+08:00

你看到了吗？

我那大大的笑容

在向你微笑

3年了.

好久好久

久得我都快忘了。

谢谢你那突如其来的关心

哪怕只是那几个字

我都了解了

看着你的照片

我的心都暖了起来

在遥远的你

你感觉到了吗？

: )

26122010.

2010-12-26T19:57:00.001+08:00

IT's PARTY TIME.!

you better watch out,

you better not cry,

you better no pout,

i'm telling you why,

Santa Claus is coming to town.

Merry Christmas.! ♥

Christmas pass, NewYear come, 2010 gone. =]

Christmas eve, was a awesome night.

went to club with gang of awesome friends.

I love th night, like this. :)

2010 gonna end soon, in 5days time.

its ain't a good year actually.

there was too much of things happen in a short period.

th heart was hurt and bleed.

from starting a relationship with someone awesome, at the end, break up still.

too many rumors throw to me, i have to face it alone.

some friends was leave me away, who cares? they are not true friends.

I said, nobody loves me, true friends said, i love you and i meant it. ♥

and now i know, sometimes i just have to take a breath and let it all go. i won't need people in my life who don't need me in theirs.

i'm th author of the story of my life, i don't have to wait on a happy ending, i can write it myself. : )

thank you for those who being hypocrite in my life, you make me realize that your words are only bullshit.

thank you for those who mad at me, you only me me think more mature.

thank you for those who envy me, you only make yourself esteem grow.

thank you for those who leave me, you only make me stronger and think twice about making the same mistake again.

thank you for those who talk shit about me, you only make me more popular and show others that you have no life on your own.

thank you for those who lie on me, you only make me see the real truth and the truth about what kind of person that you are.

thank you for those who hate me, you seriously make me become tougher.

thank you for those who gossip about me, you make me become the center of your world.

be truth to yourself,

and think before you do it.

words are like bullets, they can never take back and they could kill. some days you are gonna take back what you have said.

from th start till th end,

i'd rather to be strong and have a moments of weakness than be weak and have a moment of strength. =]

" if you worth it, i won't give up.

if i give up, you're not worthy. "

thank you for those who always being for me at 2010.

you make my like meaningful and full of joy and love.

.:.:.2011.:.:.

New Memories, New Mistakes, New Heartaches, New Peoples, New Tears, New Laughs, New Fishy, New Year. : )

♥ use th big smile to welcome the NewYear. ♥

21122010.

2010-12-21T02:35:00.000+08:00

如果我真的要求

你会不会真的不离开。

i know i shouldn't be like this.

this is not the only solution.

before things come worse.

i wish i could stop myself.

i cant remember how and why that i'm here

i just want to scream

how could this happen to me?

and i don't understand,

how can i feel this pain. and still be alive.
till now, i rather to torture myself,
to let myself feel the pain and not think about it anymore.

i know i make my mistake

so i choose to walk away

i cant explain what happen

the night still goes on as i'm fading away

give up. yes i should.

i should do this, long time ago.

stop giving me any promises.

easy to promise, difficult to fulfill the promise.

i deserve something better. right?

15122010。

2010-12-15T04:52:00.001+08:00

又一次
选择逃避,不面对

其实不知道该做什么
只知道不可以再折磨自己
除了不值得，还是不值得

有些人不能在一起
可是他们的心在一起
有些人表面在一起
但心却无法在一起
有些人从没想过在一起
却自然而然的在一起
有些人千辛万苦终于在一起
却发现其实他们并不适合在一起

这世界上
没有能倒带的爱情
就算真的发生了
一切早已经面目全非
回不去了
所以只能一直往前

＂失望，是一种幸福
因为期待，所以失望
因为有爱，所以期待
只是这种幸福有点痛＂

告诉自己
选择逃避是不想伤心，不想受伤害
其实自己早已明白
这只是给自己的借口
说穿了只是不敢面对

哭过就算了
不能怎样，也不行怎样
把那份爱
收起来
做足准备
面对别的挑战．

~~无谓的想念~~
不再发生

13122010。

2010-12-13T18:30:00.000+08:00

it just seriously hurt when it happen on you. =\

i dream a dream.
which very meaningful. and its also a fact that i don't want to accept.
heart break and bleeds but still it beats.

who cares?
假情假意的你，我不需要。

[49天过了

现在连唯一可以看见你的地方也没了

唯有从照片中，不断挖掘脑海里最深的那层记忆]

OpenEyes.

2010-12-06T20:15:00.000+08:00

Look around it's deadly night
You've been losing every fight
Your hopeless, feeling broken
Your feet are rough they're scraped and bruised
Still have strength to take you through into the dawn

Just close your eyes
and push right through
i know it's tough right now
this was meant for you
when the clouds are gone
not a shadow in sight
you'll be drenched in the sun
with open eyes

at the beach the wanes do crash

tuck and grab and pull you back

the sun rays covered in gray

The sand ledge they sulk and burn

hurricane will take its turn unto the dawn

03122010.

2010-12-03T18:37:00.000+08:00

i ain't a robot, i'm not under your control.

so show me your effort, even tho just a little bit.

real girl aren't prefect,
prefect girl aren't real.
i would like to become a real girl more than th prefect girl.
at least, i'm real in whatever i do.

i would like to show those who think there are prefect a middle finger.
because middle finger is only use when words are not enough to describe my hater.

you protect your friend, at the same time. me too.
don't ask people to respect you if you don't respect people.

28112010.

2010-11-28T17:47:00.000+08:00

i don't mention doesn't means i don't care.

do behave yourself.

you've cross th line.

最幸福的事

2010-11-22T00:36:00.000+08:00

少了你的照顾

真的很不习惯

不过我知道

大家都在努力的适应中

这辈子

最幸福的事

是做过你的亲人

可以送完你最后一程

如果可以

下一辈子

我还要做你的孙女

我爱你

我想你, 永远.

回到家
习惯性的躺在你的床上
享受那一刻温暖的感觉
那是唯一一个还拥有你味道的地方
那股熟悉的味道
总可以安慰我的心灵
在那里, 我总是感觉到你的存在

打开衣橱
才发现里面留了一件你的衣服
好惊讶好惊喜
那会是我永远的宝贝

10112010.♥♥

2010-11-12T18:34:00.000+08:00

10111990.
th fishy foo fang yu is born to this amazing world.

10112010.
th fishy foo fang yu is celebrating her birthday with a gang of awesome friends. =]
special thanks to everyone, i appreciated it very much. :)
thank you Kitty, TaiTai, LehTung, Panda, KahYann and Vsop to give me th surprise.
btw, cake is not to play but is to eat. :P
thank you.

was in Ab's place after all of them back.
i love th moment only both of us, and we talk, heart to heart. =]
thank you for th bracelet and the letter, i love it very very much.
I -heart- you Ab Sham. =]

went to 20'some to have some beer.
altho there was something happen at first, bt i still enjoy it.
positive thinking, what a memorable birthday. :P

Dataran as usual since 20'some is going to close early.
i'm sorry for what i've did.
sometimes i just unable to control you know?
i doesn't purposely to make you all worry about me.
i just miss. =\

Ghany was the next round for us.
talk crap at there as usual.
than we were home finally. =]

fishy foo is now officially 20.
is time to be mature and no more childish.
fight for the future is the only thing i should do now.

and yeah, thankyou JinHong for the funny birthday song. =]

-BirthdayIsNotEqualToLuckyDay-

i feel you.

2010-11-08T19:24:00.000+08:00

is having some awesome days this few week.

05112010.
i went to Ipoh to find the babe ab.
we actually done nothing but i'm seriously happy with it.
she's th little girl that always make me smile, from bottom of th heart.
we watched Unstoppable, we ate Secret Recipe, we walked around JJ.
ThankYou for th day my dear. ♥♥

Focus on our Pinky Converse. ♥

Lollipop. is ♥

06112010.

was in SnowFlake with Elvina, JinHong and YauYau.

thank you for everything.

i love th BaskinRobbin cake alot. :)

btw, oh my Elvina~ please drive safety next time~ :P

i love BR. alot. =]

HomeSweetHome for few days.

and i choose to sleep in her room.

i feel her. and i love th feel.

Start.

2010-11-02T21:59:00.000+08:00

终于

回归最初的心情

人总是因为太多的耳语

影响了心态，想法，感觉

渐渐的不小心,

失去了自我.

到最后

变质

那些所谓的值不值得，应不应该，适不适合，可不可以

不同的心态，不同的看法

当舍弃那些所谓的枷锁

回归到最初的心态

那样

真的会快乐很多

相信我

31102010. ♥

2010-10-31T12:17:00.001+08:00

there are always somethings amazing and under our expectation.

and i'm happy, i get you back.

this is the only thing that seriously cheer me up after ton of things happen.

♥ ♥ ♥

今天的你,还好吗？

2010-10-29T18:34:00.000+08:00

可惜你早已远去消失在人海.

只怪自己不够坚强
看着你的照片
你的美,你的笑都让我入神
最后只有自己大哭一场
原谅我
我只是太想你

婆
你在天国, 还好吗？

To, dearest Grandma. ❤

2010-10-27T23:29:00.000+08:00

24102010. you choose to leave us.

i'm sorry i cant be with you at th time you leaving.
I Love You and I Miss You till th end of my life.
you are my one and only grandma forever.

i miss those time.
th time you tell me,
[妹妹，吃多一点比较好看]
[妹妹，晚上不要洗头，头风啊]
[妹妹，帮婆婆扫背]
[妹妹，帮婆婆擦药]
[妹妹，来，拿钱去买ice-cream吃]

i miss th time you nagging.
but you will never angry and scold us.
you are kind and lovable, always.

i still remember,
when th time you hold my hand,
you look at everyone of us, i know, you just wanna remember our face.
i'm sorry, i just unable to control my tears.

thanks for everyone who came.
our family appreciated it so much.

Popo. I miss You I Love You always.
and me, fang yu, is your grandchild, forever.
RIP. =]

Th best things in my life, is i have you to be my grandma. and i have be with you for 20years.

i miss your smile, so much.

you are in my heart, always. with love.

Th photo is complete, because of you.

Th dearest one. Rest In Peace.

be strong, be tough.

20102010. =]

2010-10-20T02:02:00.001+08:00

some reason make me wanna run away. from you, from this town.
human's heart, sinister.
you got th power to let everyone believe on you.
do you know, sometimes people don't change.
they just pretend.
as how i pretend in front of you, only you.
i have to pretend that i'm so tough, so happy even tho i know you do those kind of things of me.
if you think that i don't know anything. sorry to say, you are too naive.
maybe, we can't be friends.
trust me, there are no fate for us, even a little bit.

true friends, with heart.
they will not effect by those word if they treasure th friend.
so far, i have see th true face, of you all.
thank you, it is a lesson of me. altho it hurt me so much.
there are always one person that i'll never forget. and i do willing to forgive every single things,only for her.
sometime i have to act like i don't care, even if i do. i really do.
i care i cry.
its time to be more and more independent.
its time to chance.

what is LIFE?
Life Isn't Fucking Easy.

one emotional can express thousand words.
but sometimes, thousand words are unable to express even one emotional. =\

-FeelMyLove. EvenYouNotQualifyTo-

20102010. a blessed day.

IMY.

thank you.♥

13102010. =]

2010-10-13T02:20:00.000+08:00

i just want th life, like this.
as happy as i can.

you told me.

behind my smile, is everything that you'll never understand.

and i have to tell you,

try to pretend myself that i'm happy,

slowly it will becomes my habit and finally it will becomes my character.

trust me.

life,

love hurts, boys lie, friends cry, people die, parents yell.

life will never be prefect,

we always try, bt it still never good enough and we will never know why.

i'm trying my best to show everyone my personality.

i just want to stay true to myself.

sometimes, i wish to be like th barbie, th bitch that has everything. =|

so what if you dont like my words, dont listen.

if you dont like my actions, just turn your head than.

simple. = ]

永远

一定会有一个人,

默默的存在我的世界里.

不刻意提起,也不会一直想起.

她只霸占了心里某一个小角落

可是她并不是最亲爱的男友女友.

偶尔,我会不小心的遗忘她

可是永远,在我最需要的时候

她会默默地出现在我身边

给我无止境的支持

你,就是那个人. =]

这对我来说,

真的很重要

我曾经以为我已经不在你的世界里

曾经我以为我们不再是朋友

而我,也默默地把你收在心里某个角落.

可是突然发现

原来你和我一样

一直默默地把我放在你的世界里

就像你一直默默地存在我的世界里

一样.

真的

很谢谢.

那位,我喝醉还会信息她的女孩. =]

ILoveMyLife, LikeThis.

NoDoubt.

05102010.

2010-10-05T23:31:00.000+08:00

其实...很无力

其实...很迷惘

我要的是什么？没人能解答.

毫无目的的往前走.

独立的女孩

连自己也不了解自己

这才是挫折感的来源

oh oh oh .

finally awake after 678926 hours of sleep.

i hate, i hate this kind of mood.

so weird, so moody, so emo.

so depressed in a sudden.

i miss everything. every single things.

stupid me, idiot me, silly me. = \

btw, thankyou for TARC,

which finally called me up, at 3.24pm.

oh yeah. =\

i don't wanna be a be a soft girl who lost in th shadow.

有时就是这样

莫名其妙的执著

真的很莫名其妙

明知会成为一种负担

却还是执著的馅了下去

到最后,还是苦了自己

这到底, 是为了什么？

我

还是在努力

努力的寻找两者之间的平衡点

ANTM's drugs.

2010-10-04T05:01:00.001+08:00

i was totally in love with America's Next Top Models.
i used 4days to watch cycle 13 and 14,
almost everynight i sleep after 6am. =D
the girls are damn beauty.
i love everyone of them especially th Tyra Bank, th host of AMTM.
she's awesome OMG.!
America's Next Top Models, its a drugs.! :P

done some random stuff this few night, non stop.
thrusday,
was plan to Ghany to yum cha with KK and TT,
suddenly, we were in 21th enjoying th bear,
after that, we appear in Lush, with th super duper casual wear.
MCD as usual but we were suddenly plan to move together and we go hunt for th house, immediately.! and it was already 5am in th morning.

th next day,
i went to ipoh, 2times at th same days.
ahahahahhaahhahahahha..
nooby me. = =+
1st time, for send th little ky home.
2nd time, for club at Club9. =]
i love that night, th clubbing night.
was like, soooooooooooooo long i din't have this kind of fun.
i enjoy it and i f. love it. xD
special thanks to everyone who were there that night. = )

Sunday Sunday Sunday,
and its time to BBQ.!
th main point is to farewell actually,
they were going to stop there studies due to some reason,
bt i know they gonna have a better future. =]
take care my friends,
all th best.

and now,
i having a super duper sexy voice. =[
i hate it!
running nose. eww.!
pills pills pills everyday..

btw,
oh my lovely TARC.
do you know that i'm still waiting for your call?
can you PLEASE be efficient a little bit?
even a little bit kay? =[
you always like to, pissed me off.
sigh. =\

30092010.

2010-09-30T05:01:00.002+08:00

Fishy say:

YEAH.!

i'm happy, and excited.
i passed all my paperss..
thanks god.!
altho some of th paper is out of my expectation,
bt, who cares?
i still passed all.!
2A 2B+ 2C+

so, HELLO DEM.!
here i comes~

i chatting with my mom , through SMS today.
wow, what a good way. >D
she still persuade me to go for another try for th campus transfer.
and,
yes i did.
i just don't want my mom to be disappointed,
and i know, she just want me to by her side, always. =]
i'll get th result for th application this Friday.
Just pray for it, for nothings. >D

everything still remain th same after i back to Kampar.
what a good things? =]
and babe, please be chill kay?
we are here for you, always.
" In th middle of difficulty always lies opportunity"
no worries hey.!
we will be classmate forever.
lets rock th sunday night.
whoot.!

there are 10 hamster in my hostel now.
owwww..
they are cute, OMG. <3

and 3of them is inside my room now.
they gonna accompany me, everyday, every minute, every second. <3

i'm crazy in twitter recently. xD
hey babe.
twit me.!

was watching American Next Top Models and Gossip Girls.
i was in love with them.
oww.. leng luissssss ♥♥♥

th last day of September.

i pass it with all th love around. ♥

26092010.

2010-09-26T01:15:00.000+08:00

finally.
i'm back to Kampar, th dead town.

is time to keep all th holiday mood and change it to study mood huh.?
=X

th sem break.
is fun, bt there are ton of things happen.
i'm trying to ignore everything and enjoy th holiday.
and congrats to myself,
i done it, very well. :)

fully rest in this sem break.
i sleep at 11++pm.. and i wake up at 3++pm. everyday.
syok nya ~~~~~~

i had finish 4 books in this sem break.
owww.. what a miracle.. xD
book is th only entertainment for me during th sem break.
i have no lappy to online and i only got a psp.
poor me~
bt is a good things for my family,
at least i can sleep early. LOL

and i play tanglung and candle while th mooncake festival.
how long i never play like this?
i've totally no idea.
after i move to my new house when 9years old.? maybe.

and i finally visit to th doctor,
to cure my gastric problem.
and now, i have to eat th medicine everyday.
ewww... = \
and my mom had throw all my panadols away today when she came to my hostel.
sad case.!

and i just back from Genting last monday with my secondary school friendssssss.
sorry for th rude..
bt it seriously fucking fun.! xD
we take ton of photo and we laugh every minute, every second. <3
thanks to Ptee, Shanny, Foong, ZhiWeng and YauThim.
its a wonderful and awesome trip.
lets plan for th next trip babe.

waiting for th shuttle bus.

th color of th day, dark blue.

my next target.!

i was in love with neo print, Again.

th group.

Foong*Fishy

i want this. > <

[love]

saw KahYann on th way i back to hotel.

love * breath.

friends is important in my life.
without them, without laugh, without happiness.
= )

ILY - IMY.

Its Like. Too Random.

2010-09-16T18:30:00.000+08:00

its like,
finally, i get th call. from th TARC.
at th same time,
they pissed me off.

its like,
dying to belong.
to whom?
i have no idea.

its like,
outdated.
what happen to everyone of them?
i would like to know,
but no one could tell me th true.

its like,
you are nt loveable anymore.
you need someone to be with you.
bt, i wont be th one anymore.

its like,
i want to start over perhaps,
to be a people that more happy,
better.

its like,
a good listener is nt easy to be,
sometime,
you won't be necessary to get what you want.

its like,
everyone was saying that i was change.
Am i? Did i? Do i?
hmmm... let's see.

its like,
don't feel to have any communication with you.
even tho a small conversation,
its make me suffer.

it's like,
every time after read your blog.
it make me feel,
bad, and fucking wtf.

its like,
i have to smile to those who torture me,
i'm Fishy.
Yes, th Fishy Foo Fangyu always, don't think too much.

its like,
please insert th key word,
"IMY"
no such memory.

its like,
i hate th word "if"
when you know that might be fake,
or even something won't happen,
so its pointless to think about it.
But sometimes,
th "if",
its a free medicine,
to cure th despair,

-its like, a random me, a random post.-

-which i always like to do so.-

10092010.

2010-09-10T00:10:00.000+08:00

its like a finally i can online..
gosh, i'm dying cause of this.. x.X

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after 215561462489 days..
i'm finally at KL once again..
is 118km away from Kampar, Perak..
owww... i miss th days in Kampar actually.. = \

went to Penang last sunday..
its kinda fun..
just too bad there was some accident while on th way back to Kampar..
God bless.. = \

Go ipoh to look for th babe sham before back to KL..
for our brunch..
th 06092010. <3

th sham. :)

My girl, thx for th blog, it warm my heart, IMY. =]

th mini cupcakes.

th mini cupcakes..

my mom bought this to me all th way from Kepong as my breakfast..

its nt my favorite actually bt its her's..

xDDD

just went back from book fair today..

at klcc.. : )

th sad things is i only bought a book..

ewww... only one.. x.X

bt i think its enough for me for th whole sem break.. :D

and and and..

i going to have a new hair colour bt nt a new hair style..

what a sad news... x.X

my mom don't allow me to cut my hair short .. :'(

a very sudden..

i feel like wanna cancel allllllllllllllllll my trip plan..

i just wanna stay home.. silently.. = \

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there were too much of things finally i get to understand until i leave..

think too much and care too much..

it was time to let go of everything..

every single things.. :)

"let it go, put it down, don't torture myself." =]

here we come to th end. <3

04092010

2010-09-04T22:12:00.003+08:00

tears drop silently in th car yest and on th way i walking back home today actually.
and i seriously hope no one notice it.
i just hope to let them see my smile, the last time maybe? : )

was hanging out with th gang. as usual.
th AB, CCM, Pui, Kc and Timmy. <3
and i was addicted to watch horror movie with th gang.
i just miss th time we scream and laugh together.

all of them went back to their hometown today.
and th funny things is, i started to miss them within 1hour they leave.
omg.!

now.. all of us is going to enjoy our 3weeks sem break.
ahaha.! i'm going to penang more while ltr with my classmate.
its only leave 10hours or something like that. * whoot.! *
and i'll back to kl at monday i think..
gosh, i was like, 921373128 years nvr back home.
MOM and DAD.! wait for me.!!! :D
hmm... when will i back here? errr... maybe.. will i back here?
no idea yet.. : | i'm still waiting for th letter..
and i just finish my 2nd time application today.
yea.. th 2nd time, and will be th last time i think..
once if th college ignore th application again,
i'm here to sorry to my friends, you all have to face me for another year, or maybe 2 more years. > (

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kawan-kawan ku.

th ab.
i'm here to thanks for every single little things.
thankx for th love and caring.
i knew, i'm th lucky one who have a friend like you.
IMY and ILY. you know what i mean. : )
good luck and take care.
i at kl waiting for you. : D
trust me, distance will never be th problem for us. ever and ever. <3

- Its Time To Play. -

Hello Sembreak.

2010-09-02T11:38:00.003+08:00

Bye exam.! Bye sem4.! Hello Sembreak.!!!!

Finally i have finish all th papersssssssss.
Officially start my semester break now.
Happy? or nor?

Just finish my last paper, th most difficult paper of mine
Which is th paper i most confidence with
Th ~~Cost Accounting~~.
I scan through the test paper, and my brain is totally blank.
Okay fine. i guess i was overestimate myself.
Guess what,
I AIM to get an A, bt nw, i cant even sure weather will it pass or not. ahaha.!
Funny.!

And.
My fucking con break into two while i rub my eyes.
Yes! Its break and it make my eyes f.pain.
and this happen only few minutes before th test start.!
Gosh.. What happen to today?!
I done my test with only 1 eyes.! wtf.!

And and.
Why does th College Admin block workers tell me th application will only approve after i get my result?
Bt half of my college mate dy get their letter which ald approve th campus transfer.
So where's mine? Where's mine? !!!!!!!!!!
Don't tell me th college gonna ignore my application and let me study th e-comers at Kampar branch..
I'll seriously f you.!

Bad Bad Day. = |

Its enough for being emo for th same reason.

I just want to appreciated every single things and i hope i could.

Friend.

ILY. Remain unchanged.No matter hw. = )

I'm sorry for my words if i did hurt you.

I hope. Its nt too late for th apologize. = |

You.

So what if you hate me.

I'm still th FishyFooFangYu remain unchanged.

I hate pun. At th same time, i do hate you too.

Fair right? =]

-PartyTime-

31082010

2010-08-31T05:23:00.000+08:00

路一直都在.

不过我忘了应该怎么走.

From th time you walk away from me while i walking to you.

I knew everything.

And I should understand everything.

Yes. This action had hurt me. So badly. So deep.

I'll be tough no matter how.

So close? So far?

So confuse. : |

- Mental Breakdown -

2010-08-28T01:29:00.002+08:00

stubbornness kill me.

i'm sorry.

i've make things become worse and worse.

27082010.

2010-08-27T22:41:00.002+08:00

空洞的眼神.代表了一切.

exam finally start.
study mood. On oN ON.

th 1st paper.
Principle of Account.
Too careless, just blame myself.
God bless me dont fail. : )

'Friendship' , something hard to remain huh?

" let it go if people dont even treasure it."

this is what i tell myself every day every minute every second.

i seriously don't hope it will affect my study mood.

but i just cant control it. :x

and now. i'm just doing something that i don't like.

犯贱.

2010-08-21T17:19:00.000+08:00

sometimes is just too emotional.

no explanation.

just down.

i'm tired to make an effort.

bt when is only th time that i stop torturing myself.

maybe

i'm just useless like a white crayon.

20082010.

2010-08-20T12:22:00.002+08:00

th 16th.
th nightmare. < /3

th 18th.
th sweet day. <3

went Ipoh with my babes.
Inception is our plan bt too bad we cant get any ticket.
everything go smoothly as what i hope too. :)
i enjoy every moment with them.

i love her. and everyone of my friendsssss.

Friends are for a season.
Best friend are forever.
i'm surrounding by a angel, and i like to call her, my best friend. :)

FromNowOn.

2010-08-14T15:06:00.001+08:00

stay strong?
yes i have to.
but, can i do it?
doubt myself. :(

a strong person know how to keep their life in order.
even with tears in their eyes,
they still manage to say " I'm okay" with a smile.

people are going to hurt me any time, anywhere.
i just have to decide which one are worth to pain.
people need to be more understanding, and less judgemental.
anger is weakness, patience is strength.
but i'm seriously impatient nowadays.

everything we do build a memory.
every moment can be important and can be something that i can hold on to forever. :)
i appreciated what you all have gave me.
even a simple caring but it warm my heart.
everyone have a bestfriend during each stage of life,
but only a very lucky few have the same friend in all stage of life.
i hope, i'm th lucky one. :)

th week14.
i know i cant undo any moment in my life,
i should enjoy my life to the fullest from now on.
i will cherish every moment and every little things that i having because i will never know how much it mean to me until it really gone. : (
i want keep on laughing, keep on believing, keep on growing, keep on trusting, keep on doing, keep on praising, keep on confessing and keep on keeping on. :)

"make millions memories out of one moment."

Eccentric.

2010-08-12T23:43:00.000+08:00

its so hard to be neutral now.

i'm eccentric to her.

yes. fucking eccentric.

i admit this.

a Starbucks warm my day.

08082010.

2010-08-08T11:55:00.000+08:00

my house line have been cut for few days..
its f boring..
dying soon i think. x.X

the one last month..
ngm seh dak..
really ngm seh dak..
i don't want to leave.. i don't want. :(
tears drop for few days. for the same reason.
meaningless. pointless.
what can i do in this one last month?
play hard? enjoy hard? study hard?
i hope to lock myself in the room. ignore everything.
and now.
i seriously hope the letter will never ever send to my house.
i just wanna stay.

i found out that i'm fucking emotional this few days.
smile so hard. cry so loud.
i couldn't imagine myself how can i cry in front of them.?
eww.! useless fishy foo. i though i can stand for everything.
i though the tears will not drop in the public.
i swear i hope. no next time.

i choose to ignore your post. your status.
i don't want to know anything about you.
unless you find me.
imma lc fishy.

i'm a outsider.
i always understand this. just i choose to ignore.
you always said i think too much. but i believe what's in my mind.
you don't need to show it out or either abandon me.
i'll avoid you.

the heart. its full of words.
i hope to talk with you. even tho just few min.. ..... . ......:(

03082010.

2010-08-03T04:38:00.000+08:00

guilty night.

i seriously din't expect that she'll cry in front of me.

i really din't. :'(

i just feel like...so.... guilty.

and i'm fail to comfort her.

i'm sorry.

blame myself.

F for Fishy. She's mine. :]

The Mole. The AB. <3

30072010.

2010-07-30T00:39:00.002+08:00

i want to cry loudly

i want to shout loudly.

i'm fucking moody now.

is a bad bad week.

i cant stand for it.

can i kill myself.?

*MAD*

how good if there are a reset/do-over button on the keyboard of life.

its week11 now.
i left 3 weeks.
only 3weeks.

i know
sometimes i have to finish all the treas.
and find a place in my heart to smile. :)
i cried today.
not because IMY or even wanted you.
is just because i realize that i'm gonna be ALRIGHT even without you.

and i know.
i'm the lucky one.
at least.
there still have someone who always beside me, around me, near me, in front me, behind me. xD
she always know what's in my mind.
i seriously appreciated have a friend as her.
ThankYou. :)

23072010.

2010-07-23T12:48:00.010+08:00

is just over-estimate myself.
just get back my CostAccounting paper few hours ago.
i was totally wtf while i get the paper back.
its not what i expect actually.
i'm not satisfied with the mark.
but i still have to show my f.ugly smile to the classmate and lecturer.
sms to the ~~sham~~ as usual.
and i seriously feel to cry in front of her and get a hug from her.
sorry for my annoying. =X

back to my life.
22072010.
The singing competition set up by TARC Chinese society.
YY, PuiPui, Lewis, Nick, Moon, FeiZai. :)
Good show everyone. :)
we was just screaming like hell while my friendssssss having their show.
and finally.. i lost my sound. LOL.!
i having a "sexy" sound now.. *ewwwww*
Jumping up and down while they get their trophy.
and i seriously having a nice memory that night. :)
thanks for everything and the surprise.
i apperciated it very very much.
the song, is our wonderful memory. :)
"I'm a Fish." =]

Feekic.

Lewis. Nick.

YY. PuiPui.

rush back to do the stupid tutorial and essay.
ewwwww...
they kill me badly. :(

and and and..
i have 4 midterm for the coming weeks...
OMG.!
can someone kindly kill me now? please ~~~~~~~~~
i wish. i wish.
i could do better this time.

~~PS: i'm from accounting. yes i'm. :)~~

Fmouth.

2010-07-20T02:39:00.006+08:00

i have a big mouth

i have i have i have.

OMFG.!

fucking hate myself.

*bitchslap* myself.

should be a happy things to congrate others.

but i just post wrong thing. wrong words. so darn wrong.

i'm sorry.

i'm really sorry.

fucking ugly me do fucking wrong things.

*slap* *slAP* *SLAP*

Pretend A Smile. Everything Goes Smooth.

treas drop quietly this few days.

i just unable to hold it.

i though i though i though.

i really though i can stand for it.

at the end.

~~fail.~~ :'(

End.

2010-07-15T23:01:00.000+08:00

everything is finally end.

coward me. stubborn me. bastard me. idiot me.

I'm sorry. :(

let it be a wonderful memory.

keep in our mind.

forever and ever.

IMY.ILY.

for the last time.

Random.

2010-07-14T11:16:00.001+08:00

imma childish.
i admit this.
what to do.
lazy to change. and no point to change. :)

that was toooooo much of things happen this few days.
OMFG.
i went to see another doctor. i hate the ~~Fucking Skin Allergic~~. :(
and now i have to eat the pills all the days. non-stop.
the only pleased things is. the pills is PINK.! *laugh*

assignment assignment assignment.
there are a TON of assignment waiting for me.
arrghh...
i hate assignment.
i wish i could just throw all my assignment away. to those ppl. i wish. *laugh again*

and and and.
i went to help some of my friendsssssssssssssssssssss for the photo-shooting yest.
no comment. no idea. SPEECHLESS.
you can see a fish acting pro there. *laugh loudly*

i really hope i could calm down as fast as i can for the every time i being angry or whatever.
i don't really willing to show my angry face to all of my friendsssssssssss...
thousandssssssssss sorry for those who always showing the angry face. *laugh madly*

Laugh Loudly. Cry Quietly.

The random fishy said:

Lets Laugh.!

I'm Just Too Random. I know. :)

Smile. The TradeMark.

Convo 2010.

2010-07-10T23:01:00.001+08:00

I know I know I know..
I'm not the special one is the group.
I'm just the unknown..
but I always know..
I'm the unique one. * i hope *
~~At least for certain people~~.. * i think *

Do not ever try to compare with others..
I will not care what you had say to me..
I'm trying to up cover my ears.. ;)
I know I can
And you..
Don't try to disturb me..
You are just such a annoying to me. :)

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Convocation 2010.
I'm just there to support my friends :)
I'm enjoying those photo section..
At least.. I'm happy while i hanging out with her and a big gang of friendsssss... :)))

Ab Sham _ Nick

The Caslyn.

Congrats LehTung GorGor. :)

My babe. AB Sham.❤

I was thinking..
When only will be my turn?
I had study at college bout 2 years time..
And i was like...... Done nothing.... .. ... :(
I seriously hope I can wear the gown one days.....
And
I hope my parents will feel proud because of me..
I hope..that's not a dream.. :))
I know I can done it...
I know..I always know.. :))

Now i was having the fucking skin allergic. :(
Is so darn itchy..
When only i will recover?
when whEN WHEN..!
:'(((((((
* cry loudly.*

02072010.

2010-07-02T11:50:00.001+08:00

sleepless week.
getting sick and sick.

i was overestimate myself.
i thought i can handle everything well.
i thought i can help them.

i thought i thought.

i was acting pro with my ~~poor skills~~. =X

i think i had make everyone around me mad.
i had shown my temper to them.
i talk with a un-good model to them.
this and that.
i seriously hate ~~myself~~ sometimes.

i was always disturbing people.
anytime, anywhere.
i dislike my ~~personality~~.

For those PeoPLe which i hang out with them this few days.

thanks for forgive me.

and

sorry for anything if i did wrong.

I'm holding on every moment, every thought, and each and every good time we had together.

~~and the thief.~~
~~i swear i will curse you.!~~
~~as fierce as i can.!~~

[I Focus So Hard On What I Wanted.]

[But I Lost Of What I Deserve.]

=x

2010-06-30T14:01:00.002+08:00

Final Decision is made.

The application form passed up.

I just hope i won't regret.

* I HOPE*

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每天大笑三分钟.?

Can i.?

*no comment*

Retreat.

2010-06-29T03:44:00.003+08:00

since Miss Cupcakes complain i looooooooooong time din update..
now............
nah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
update dy lar ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ :P

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终于回了家

好久好久. 没有那样的悠闲

打开小说. 照片掉了

当时的笑容. 好甜蜜

看着想着. 四年了吧

开始的深爱. 到后来的冷漠

那种伤痛

早已让时间洗去. 早已烟消云散

回想当时. 好傻好笨

曾经惊讶于你的狠心

你的一句话. 把我从天堂打入地狱

当时. 好痛好痛

也不知道用了多久. 安抚自己那恼人的情绪

现在的我们

剩下的只有尴尬的笑容

就算在同个地方读书. 还是一样.不变

不闻不问的关系. 或许是最好的距离

至少. 你我都知道对方都过的很好

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Busy week.
For them, for me.
Okay fine, i know i was overestimate myself. = =
Promise here Promise there. Can i really help them with my ~~poor skills~~? =(
I hope I wont messed-up everything. I hope.

I seriously hate people my full name.
Hey you.! Don't make me mad. o0o
I hate I hate I hate.
Call my name, but not with my sir name okay.!
Argh.!

I don't want. I don't want . I don't want.
I don't want stay in my room.!
I don't want face the pc.!
I don't want face the stupid assignment.!
I'm mad I'm mad I'm mad. !
Anyone can tell me what's going on to me.
HELP.!

-YourWordSeriouslyHurtMeSometimes.-

-song hearing-

[John Mayer - Say ]

Silent Mode. ON.

2010-06-21T19:06:00.000+08:00

哭过就算了

每次都这样不是么

回忆是多余的

选择不留恋

才是最好的不是么

敢爱敢恨

一直以为自己是那么的坚强

回过头看

才知道自己是在平凡不过的女生

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Just finish my Principle of Economic test this morning.
OMFG.!!
I doesn't hope I can score well, I just hope I can pass. :(

Finally I get the form.
There are only four courses offer in Kampar Tarc.
Accounting, Business Administration, E-Commerce & Marketing, Marketing.
I have totally no idea what should I choose now.
I don't hope to leave Kampar. But the courses I want doesn't offer in Kampar branch. :(
Anyone can help me to choose it? *cry*

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I live with my own standard doesn't means I'm a weird person.

Sometimes i was like too care on somethings.
Even a little things or either a friends.
I shouldn't caring too much.
As what they said.
I'M STUBBORN. :))))

Sometimes i seriously feel helpless when only little people around me is reliable.
I was too depended to friends.. Its kinda over I know.
I really don't know what I want sometimes.

I have a big mouth. and I'm brainless.
How good if I can shut my mouth forever and ever. x.X
I don't wanna be a burden. :(

Silent Mode.

-song hearing-

[那英-愿赌服输]

Emo? No way.!

2010-06-16T02:35:00.001+08:00

The communication way. ~~changed~~. :)
Not bad.
At least. I'm happy and enjoy with it.

After 30days.
The first time, face to face, communication.
With using the identity of FRIEND.

Went to his hse. have dinner. have a nice talk.
Thx for everything. :)
I appreciated so much.
ThanksQ. : )

Sometime.
Let go of the pass, will feel much more better.
I know I cant change the pass, but I can look up and smile and I'm ready for my future.

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Sometimes life might make me down.
But i know they sure have something to cheer me up. again and again. :D

You will never know how amazing one word from the right person can turn my whole day around and make me feel better in a second.

" i like the way you treat friends."
A simple sentence, but it warm my heart. :)
Never underestimate the power of word.

-song hearing-

[2 Different Tears-Wonders Girl.]

Burden?

2010-06-12T03:45:00.000+08:00

After 1month 2weeks. 44days. 1056hours. 63360 minutes. 3801600 seconds.
I'm finally home again.
HoMe SwEeT HoMe.
I never expect that i have a serious homesick like this.
OMG.

Sometimes i was thinking.
What's the point that i sad and moody IF he/she doesn't care on it?
Its totally pointless and meaningless..
While you crying..he/she might laughing.
While you sad.. he/she might enjoying his/her life.
Until the end. i was just like a burden .
Ha Ha Ha.
Burden fishy. oh yea baby.

According to ______.
I'm just too stubborn. (not only for _______, is for everyone i think.LOL)
Ok fine, i admit i'm. xD
This will be end very soon.
Tonight.! will be the last night. :)

Btw..
I do always understand myself.
To family,
I'm just too depended and don't know how to take care myself. lol
To friends,
I'm just someone who hard to mix with and kinda annoy. LOL..

Due to somethings, I have to change myself in a short period, I MUST.
Its not feeling good when someone say I'm a burden. :)
And I have give myself some promises.. :)
Hopefully I can do it very very well..

A little announcement.
The new fishy foo fang yu is coming soon. LOL

-song hearing-

[My First Kiss - 3oh!3 ft Kesha.]

下一站.

2010-06-09T13:03:00.002+08:00

[ how good is it if life is just simple as the smile. ]

I should find my way as soon as I can.

I should.!

I don't want be a problem child.

I don't want.!

I cant always let others always worry on me.

I cant.!

I'm tough.

Yes I'm.!

Lets cheer together everyone.

Lets avoid EMO.!

❤ *love and joy* ❤